Life....

So I have been quite the cook lately. I never thought I would enjoy cooking, but I do! I love trying out new recipes and seeing if they are any good. So far, they all have been! My sister-in-law kristin said I should start putting all the recipes and pictures on my blog, so everything's all in one place. (and she can find it easier! haha :-) ) So I think that I will start putting them on. Perhaps tomorrow. We'll see if I remember. I never write on here any more. I think I would write more if there wasn't facebook. I write everything on there and feel like it's redundant to write it on here too, since it's the same people reading it. I wrote more on here when I didn't write many statuses on facebook.

Life is normal here. I'm trying to craft more that I have all my craft stuff organized in one spot. I made a sign the other day that I just love! I'm hoping to make some more soon! I have to make my brother's wedding favors too. I better get started on those! I am also trying to come up with something to put on my car with my vinyl. I'm thinking a scripture reference, I just don't know which one. Any ideas? I'm also trying to get my house in order again. A few weeks ago I had a rhythm going with cleaning and keeping my house beautiful and it's not working out so great any more. I need an excuse to clean like crazy and then just keep it up. I feel overwhelmed by all that needs to be done, and then I don't end up doing anything! Terrible, right?

Kayden is still loving school and LOVING being able to read! I'm amazed by how well he reads and how much he actually like doing it. He gets mad when I say a word that he knows. He's going to be my little scholar. I'm not so sure Cory will be. Kayden was obsessed with letters when he was 2. Cory has no interest.

Worrying about school next year for Kayden and paying for it. It's so expensive! I don't want my kid in public school any more and I also don't want to homeschool! Kayden doesn't respond well to my teaching. He needs a designated "teacher". But private school are SO expensive! We really want him to go to the school Jon went to, but you have to be rich to be able to afford to send your kids there, and then if they want to be involved in ANYTHING, it's MORE money! I understand why. It's just discouraging to me. We really can't afford it. But, we also don't have a choice. I see the parents that stand outside that school to pick up their kids at the end of the day, and my heart breaks for those kids. Parents who curse in front of their younger kids (and mine) like it's no big deal. I bet their kids say those words. The topics that they talk about. All the single parents, the siblings from different fathers, the parents who smoke (even the the sign says not to). There are 18 kids in Kayden's class and I know of one other family that the parents are married, out of 18 kids? Really? It's just sad to me. And I hear the way those kids talk, and what they talk about, and I don't like it. And this is kindergarten, how much worse is it going to get? I don't want my child exposed to all that. I want him in a good environment where he can learn what's right and hear good things, instead of hearing bad things from his classmates. I want to shield my kid from bad influences for as long as I can, especially when he's young. So, we will be trying to pay tuition for him in the fall. It's going to be a hardship, but nothing could be more important than my child having good influences and learning more about the God that loves him, and the Savior who died for him, all while learning what he needs to learn in academics.

Cory is really starting to pick up things from his brother, things I'd rather him NOT pick up. He also has quite the personality. And he talks like crazy! I found a paper that I wrote on back when Kayden was 27 months, and it had all the words he knew on it. Cory is 29 months and knows like 10 times the amount of words that Kayden knew then! It's crazy how delayed in speech Kayden really was. But being first time parents, how were we supposed to know? I do think that Cory talks more than most kids his age though, as every one points out how well and much he talks. But again, I really don't know. I only have Kayden to compare him with. It's so cute to hear Cory come up with new words every day and to hear his little (sometimes not so little) voice. :-) I need to learn to treasure these things more. They pass so quickly. Before I know it, my little boys won't be so little any more.

I need to learn patience. I am quick to anger instead of slow to anger. I just get so frustrated sometimes and I don't react how I should and then I always regret it. I need to remember that my kids are watching and I need to be a good example and show them how they should act. I need to be more calm....Pray for me as I try to be the Mom I want to be, and learn to be patient with my little ones.

We sang the following song in church today. I really like it. It's one of those songs that I have grown up singing, so it's always nice to sing it in church.

My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus’ blood and righteousness.
I dare not trust the sweetest frame,
But wholly trust in Jesus’ Name.

Refrain

On Christ the solid Rock I stand,
All other ground is sinking sand;
All other ground is sinking sand.

When darkness seems to hide His face,
I rest on His unchanging grace.
In every high and stormy gale,
My anchor holds within the veil.

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His oath, His covenant, His blood,
Support me in the whelming flood.
When all around my soul gives way,
He then is all my Hope and Stay.

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When He shall come with trumpet sound,
Oh may I then in Him be found.
Dressed in His righteousness alone,
Faultless to stand before the throne.

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